{"id":3580,"date":"2021-05-01T17:10:00","date_gmt":"2021-05-01T22:10:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/read.streamapse.com\/?p=3580"},"modified":"2021-05-01T17:10:00","modified_gmt":"2021-05-01T22:10:00","slug":"billie-eilish-this-is-my-child-and-you-get-to-hold-it-while-it-throws-up-on-you","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/streamapse.com\/Magazine\/?p=3580","title":{"rendered":"Billie Eilish – This Is My Child, And You Get To Hold It While It Throws Up On You"},"content":{"rendered":"

Beginning with the haunting alt-pop smash \u201cOcean Eyes\u201d in 2016, Billie Eilish made it clear she was a new kind of pop star\u2014an overtly awkward introvert who favors chilling melodies, moody beats, creepy videos, and a teasing crudeness \u00e0 la Tyler, The Creator. Now 17, the Los Angeles native\u2014who was homeschooled along with her brother and co-writer, Finneas O\u2019Connell\u2014presents her much-anticipated debut album, a melancholy investigation of all the dark and mysterious spaces that linger in the back of our minds. Sinister dance beats unfold into chattering dialogue from The Office on \u201cmy strange addiction,\u201d and whispering vocals are laid over deliberately blown-out bass on \u201cxanny.\u201d \u201cThere are a lot of firsts,\u201d says FINNEAS. \u201cNot firsts like \u2018Here\u2019s the first song we made with this kind of beat,\u2019 but firsts like Billie saying, \u2018I feel in love for the first time.\u2019 You have a million chances to make an album you’re proud of, but to write the song about falling in love for the first time? You only get one shot at that.\u201d<\/p>\n

Billie, who is both beleaguered and fascinated by night terrors and sleep paralysis, has a complicated relationship with her subconscious. \u201cI\u2019m the monster under the bed, I\u2019m my own worst enemy,\u201d she told Beats 1 host Zane Lowe during an interview in Paris. \u201cIt\u2019s not that the whole album is a bad dream, it\u2019s just\u2026 surreal.\u201d With an endearingly off-kilter mix of teen angst and experimentalism, Billie Eilish is really the perfect star for 2019\u2014and here is where her and FINNEAS’ heads are at as they prepare for the next phase of her plan for pop domination. \u201cThis is my child,\u201d she says, \u201cand you get to hold it while it throws up on you.\u201d<\/p>\n

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Figuring out her dreams:
\nBillie: \u201cEvery song on the album is something that happens when you\u2019re asleep\u2014sleep paralysis, night terrors, nightmares, lucid dreams. All things that don’t have an explanation. Absolutely nobody knows. I’ve always had really bad night terrors and sleep paralysis, and all my dreams are lucid, so I can control them\u2014I know that I’m dreaming when I’m dreaming. Sometimes the thing from my dream happens the next day and it’s so weird. The album isn\u2019t me saying, ‘I dreamed that’\u2014it\u2019s the feeling.\u201d<\/p>\n

Getting out of her own head:
\nBillie: \u201cThere’s a lot of lying on purpose. And it’s not like how rappers lie in their music because they think it sounds dope. It’s more like making a character out of yourself. I wrote the song ‘8’ from the perspective of somebody who I hurt. When people hear that song, they’re like, ‘Oh, poor baby Billie, she’s so hurt.’ But really I was just a dickhead for a minute and the only way I could deal with it was to stop and put myself in that person’s place.\u201d<\/p>\n

Being a teen nihilist role model:
\nBillie: \u201cI love meeting these kids, they just don’t give a fuck. And they say they don’t give a fuck because of me, which is a feeling I can’t even describe. But it’s not like they don’t give a fuck about people or love or taking care of yourself. It’s that you don’t have to fit into anything, because we all die, eventually. No one’s going to remember you one day\u2014it could be hundreds of years or it could be one year, it doesn’t matter\u2014but anything you do, and anything anyone does to you, won’t matter one day. So it’s like, why the fuck try to be something you’re not?\u201d<\/p>\n

Embracing sadness:
\nBillie: \u201cDepression has sort of controlled everything in my life. My whole life I\u2019ve always been a melancholy person. That\u2019s my default.\u201d<\/p>\n

FINNEAS: \u201cThere are moments of profound joy, and Billie and I share a lot of them, but when our motor\u2019s off, it\u2019s like we\u2019re rolling downhill. But I\u2019m so proud that we haven\u2019t shied away from songs about self-loathing, insecurity, and frustration. Because we feel that way, for sure. When you\u2019ve supplied empathy for people, I think you\u2019ve achieved something in music.\u201d<\/p>\n

Staying present:
\nBillie: \u201cI have to just sit back and actually look at what’s going on. Our show in Stockholm was one of the most peak life experiences we’ve had. I stood onstage and just looked at the crowd\u2014they were just screaming and they didn\u2019t stop\u2014and told them, ‘I used to sit in my living room and cry because I wanted to do this.’ I never thought in a thousand years this shit would happen. We\u2019ve really been choking up at every show.\u201d<\/p>\n

FINNEAS: \u201cEvery show feels like the final show. They feel like a farewell tour. And in a weird way it kind of is, because, although it’s the birth of the album, it\u2019s the end of the episode.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Beginning with the haunting alt-pop smash \u201cOcean Eyes\u201d in 2016, Billie Eilish made it clear she was a new kind of pop star\u2014an overtly awkward introvert who favors chilling melodies, moody beats, creepy videos, and a teasing crudeness \u00e0 la Tyler, The Creator. Now 17, the Los Angeles native\u2014who was homeschooled along with her brother […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3582,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[45],"tags":[499,500,501,502,503],"class_list":["post-3580","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-conversations","tag-billie","tag-child","tag-eilish","tag-throws","tag-while"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/streamapse.com\/Magazine\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3580","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/streamapse.com\/Magazine\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/streamapse.com\/Magazine\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/streamapse.com\/Magazine\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/streamapse.com\/Magazine\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3580"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/streamapse.com\/Magazine\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3580\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/streamapse.com\/Magazine\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3582"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/streamapse.com\/Magazine\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3580"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/streamapse.com\/Magazine\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3580"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/streamapse.com\/Magazine\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3580"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}